5 years ago I withdrew from school & I went home to die

That wasn’t the story I told outwardly. I said I was going home to heal.

And that’s what I believed too, when I made the decision to go home. Never once did I want to give up, never did I want to die. Except when I got home, I realized I couldn’t see past the end of that summer. I saw no future for myself. And as I watched friends around me make plans for their futures, I was struck by the lack of future in my own life. This reminded me strongly of one of my favorite books as a child, “Little Women”, where Beth, as she gets sicker and closer to dying, tells her sisters that she no longer sees a future for herself. I felt like Beth, futureless.

“Let’s stop normalizing pills and let’s normalize diving into our trauma and using it to create our power.”

This sentence would not stop hitting me over the head this afternoon and so I made this video.

You may not like it. It may trigger you. The way I see and talk about Lyme disease is really raw and honest and unfiltered. Intentionally. Be triggered. And think about it.

Today’s post will be a shorter word wise, because I have two audios to share with you. The first is a channeled message from the Akashic Records about PAIN and what it is here to teach us. While this message was channeled specifically about Lyme disease, I believe that the information the Pinnacle shared applies to all pain. So if you’re here and you don’t have Lyme disease, I encourage you to still listen to this message because there is information here for anyone who experiences pain.

Hello and welcome back!

Wow. I received the most amazing, channeled message about Lyme Disease from the Pinnacle yesterday and I feel such urgency to share it. I have attached the audio at the middle of this blog post as well as a transcription of the message. But first, I am going to tell you a bit more about the story I started in my last post.