Today's post is my story about ancestral trauma I was holding in my body which made me sick. There are four common types of energy that cause blockages; one of these types is ancestral energy. Discovering that I carry ancestral energy and discovering how that energy was a causative factor in my body's struggle with Lyme disease was life changing for me. I want to share my story here in the hopes that it might inspire you to investigate any ancestral trauma you may be carrying.

Ancestral trauma and healing may be a new topic for you, and I want to introduce it and tell my story in the easiest and clearest way possible. A quick explanation: ancestral trauma is carried down through bloodlines. If you're interested in the science behind how this works, I encourage you to look into epigenetics and read more about passed on trauma. Basically, the emotional state of our ancestors can carry down to us through our genes if our ancestors were not proficient at releasing their blocks. It would be a safe assumption to say that everyone carries ancestral trauma to some degree.

I'll answer the Who, What, Where, Why, When and How's of my ancestral trauma experience. Remember, this is just my story. Everyone's experience with passed on trauma will be different.

How did I discover that I was carrying ancestral trauma? I had heard that I carried some ancestral wounds before, from energy healers, but I had never looked deeply into what this meant or how I could find out about it myself. In July, I decided to do a course called "Waking Back Up to Your Own Soul," by the blogger/podcaster, The Balanced Blonde. I love her work and I felt very drawn to this course, so I took the plunge to do it. Part of her course is a deep dive into discovering any ancestral energy that you are carrying in your body and then releasing it. It was during this work that I learned more about my ancestral trauma.

Where does ancestral trauma show up in the body? Anywhere. It all depends on your body and the trauma you're holding. For me, it was made very clear that the ancestral trauma was causing an enormous amount of pain and illness in my body. I felt it deeply in my heart chakra, as a dull, constant, ache.

Whose trauma was I carrying? I was carrying combined trauma from my mother's and my father's lineages.

Why was I holding ancestral trauma? What trauma was I holding? By channeling my ancestors, I learned why I was carrying so much trauma. My ancestors told me that the ancestral lineage between my mother's and my father's families was created through my siblings and I so that I could take on all of the trauma and illness from both lines. My ancestors told me that my soul had signed up to do this during this lifetime, because my soul is the oldest soul in my entire lineage, and therefore has the most or easiest ability to release this energy. My ancestors told me that the pain in my body was not mine from this life. It was trauma, illness, pain, fear, lack, abuse, anger; all of this and more comes from all of the collective past generations, living on in me. Therefore, my sickness was a direct cause of this trauma in my body. It was my last tie to sickness, according to my ancestors, because I had already released my karmic ties to sickness. Through channeled conversations, they told me that once I released the ancestral energy, I would release the sickness.

When did I find out about this and how did I feel when I did?
A day or two before I channeled my ancestors and found out about my soul promise to release my lineage's pain, I felt overwhelmed by the pain in my body. I told my mom over the phone, "This pain is so awful and it's not mine. I know it's not mine but I don't know or understand where it's coming from. I wish you could understand how painful it is to be in my body. It's so exhausting and it's not mine."
Talk about divine timing. Just days later, my ancestors confirmed that this pain was not mine. During my meditation (this particular meditation is part of the Waking Back Up to Your Soul course), I felt the pain in my body increase to a unbearable level and I started crying and asking out loud, "Ancestors, tell me why you're causing so much pain in my body. Why?! What have I done?"
Unexpectedly, I got my answer: "This pain is not yours. It is our lineage's pain, living on in you."
This was not the answer to my pain I was expecting, but it was a relief. I cried, a massive wave of release going through me, as I finally received this gift of understanding.
I also felt some anger, which I had to meditate on and release. I couldn't help thinking, Why would my soul choose to take on the responsibility and pain of healing the lineage? This is not my responsibility. After some reflection, I realized that no, it's not my responsibility to heal everyone's pain and illness.
What I am here to do is heal any past pain, illness, trauma etc., so that it is not passed down anymore to future members of the lineage. Trauma that exists in my living family is not trauma I can heal without their agreement or cooperation. I can only release and bring healing to the wounds passed on to me by the spirits of my ancestors and my lineage.

What did I do to get rid of it? I meditated and I released energy, every day. I used the meditation provided in the Waking Back Up to Your Soul course I am working on and created my own meditations to facilitate healing. I practiced grounding into Mama Earth every day, releasing energies that do not belong to me. I practiced finding and releasing trauma and memories held in various parts of my body. As I released my own traumatic memories, I released the related ancestral trauma as well.

I also used movement to release the energy. I asked my body, using automatic writing, what kind of exercise I should be doing to support my body best. The answer I got was to do low impact strength training like pilates, as well as yoga and low impact cardio like walking or cycling. Funnily enough, this coincides quite closely to the exercise recommendations for my blood type AB. By moving intuitively, instead of pushing my body in demanding high intensity workouts that drain my energy in an unhealthy way, I helped my body regain its strength to process and release trauma.

I set the intention that every time I showered, exercised, walked, skin brushed, used the sauna, drank a cleansing tea or smoothie or juice, I would be releasing blocked energy. Even without thinking about this intention every time I did one of these actions, by setting it, I ensured that I was constantly releasing ancestral energy. 

How did I know when the trauma was released? Through meditation and channeling, I was aware of my body's healing and release process. One day, I sat down to meditate. At the end of the meditation I started channeling, receiving the message, "Look at your body. Feel your body. Feel how good it feels to be in your body. Feel that it is not painful. Feel that it feels good and strong and healthy." All of a sudden, I realized how good I had started to feel again. The pain was gone. Incredible!

For anyone who wants to hear more concrete proof, it came a week later when I went for a magnet therapy appointment. When my therapist scanned my body for infections to treat, she found nothing. My liver, kidney and adrenals were back up to high functioning, and my body was carrying nothing foreign: no viruses, no bacteria, no parasites, no pathogens of any kind. There was nothing to treat, besides giving my body a hormone balance to further support my adrenals.

Ancestral energy was my last tie to illness. I have received so many messages confirming that I have released illness from my life and body. If I hadn't been led to explore my ancestral trauma, and if I hadn't decided to embrace this journey whole-heartedly, I would never have found this deep-seated cause of illness. By healing my ancestral trauma, I healed myself, in the most full and deep way possible. I was not taking any kind of antibiotics, herbal or pharmaceutical during this time. I was taking some supportive supplements; however, my point is, this was not a physical healing that came from things I put into my body; no, this was an energetic healing, one which came from releasing energy inside my body.

If you feel that you are holding onto illness and cannot find a reason why, then it is possible you have an ancestral tie like I did. Let me know if you have any experience with your ancestral trauma below!